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The Suicide of Daniel Somers (Video)

By Gordon Duff and Press TV


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His words:

I am sorry that it has come to this.

The fact is, for as long as I can remember my motivation for getting up every day has been so that you would not have to bury me. As things have continued to get worse, it has become clear that this alone is not a sufficient reason to carry on. The fact is, I am not getting better, I am not going to get better, and I will most certainly deteriorate further as time goes on. From a logical standpoint, it is better to simply end things quickly and let any repercussions from that play out in the short term than to drag things out into the long term.

You will perhaps be sad for a time, but over time you will forget and begin to carry on. Far better that than to inflict my growing misery upon you for years and decades to come, dragging you down with me. It is because I love you that I can not do this to you. You will come to see that it is a far better thing as one day after another passes during which you do not have to worry about me or even give me a second thought. You will find that your world is better without me in it.

I really have been trying to hang on, for more than a decade now. Each day has been a testament to the extent to which I cared, suffering unspeakable horror as quietly as possible so that you could feel as though I was still here for you. In truth, I was nothing more than a prop, filling space so that my absence would not be noted. In truth, I have already been absent for a long, long time.

My body has become nothing but a cage, a source of pain and constant problems. The illness I have has caused me pain that not even the strongest medicines could dull, and there is no cure. All day, every day a screaming agony in every nerve ending in my body. It is nothing short of torture. My mind is a wasteland, filled with visions of incredible horror, unceasing depression, and crippling anxiety, even with all of the medications the doctors dare give. Simple things that everyone else takes for granted are nearly impossible for me. I can not laugh or cry. I can barely leave the house. I derive no pleasure from any activity. Everything simply comes down to passing time until I can sleep again. Now, to sleep forever seems to be the most merciful thing.

You must not blame yourself. The simple truth is this: During my first deployment, I was made to participate in things, the enormity of which is hard to describe. War crimes, crimes against humanity. Though I did not participate willingly, and made what I thought was my best effort to stop these events, there are some things that a person simply can not come back from. I take some pride in that, actually, as to move on in life after being part of such a thing would be the mark of a sociopath in my mind. These things go far beyond what most are even aware of.

To force me to do these things and then participate in the ensuing coverup is more than any government has the right to demand. Then, the same government has turned around and abandoned me. They offer no help, and actively block the pursuit of gaining outside help via their corrupt agents at the DEA. Any blame rests with them.

Beyond that, there are the host of physical illnesses that have struck me down again and again, for which they also offer no help. There might be some progress by now if they had not spent nearly twenty years denying the illness that I and so many others were exposed to. Further complicating matters is the repeated and severe brain injuries to which I was subjected, which they also seem to be expending no effort into understanding. What is known is that each of these should have been cause enough for immediate medical attention, which was not rendered.

Lastly, the DEA enters the picture again as they have now managed to create such a culture of fear in the medical community that doctors are too scared to even take the necessary steps to control the symptoms. All under the guise of a completely manufactured “overprescribing epidemic,” which stands in stark relief to all of the legitimate research, which shows the opposite to be true. Perhaps, with the right medication at the right doses, I could have bought a couple of decent years, but even that is too much to ask from a regime built upon the idea that suffering is noble and relief is just for the weak.

However, when the challenges facing a person are already so great that all but the weakest would give up, these extra factors are enough to push a person over the edge.

Is it any wonder then that the latest figures show 22 veterans killing themselves each day? That is more veterans than children killed at Sandy Hook, every single day. Where are the huge policy initiatives? Why isn’t the president standing with those families at the state of the union? Perhaps because we were not killed by a single lunatic, but rather by his own system of dehumanization, neglect, and indifference.

It leaves us to where all we have to look forward to is constant pain, misery, poverty, and dishonor. I assure you that, when the numbers do finally drop, it will merely be because those who were pushed the farthest are all already dead.

And for what? Bush’s religious lunacy? Cheney’s ever growing fortune and that of his corporate friends? Is this what we destroy lives for

Since then, I have tried everything to fill the void. I tried to move into a position of greater power and influence to try and right some of the wrongs. I deployed again, where I put a huge emphasis on saving lives. The fact of the matter, though, is that any new lives saved do not replace those who were murdered. It is an exercise in futility.

Then, I pursued replacing destruction with creation. For a time this provided a distraction, but it could not last. The fact is that any kind of ordinary life is an insult to those who died at my hand. How can I possibly go around like everyone else while the widows and orphans I created continue to struggle? If they could see me sitting here in suburbia, in my comfortable home working on some music project they would be outraged, and rightfully so.

I thought perhaps I could make some headway with this film project, maybe even directly appealing to those I had wronged and exposing a greater truth, but that is also now being taken away from me. I fear that, just as with everything else that requires the involvement of people who can not understand by virtue of never having been there, it is going to fall apart as careers get in the way.

The last thought that has occurred to me is one of some kind of final mission. It is true that I have found that I am capable of finding some kind of reprieve by doing things that are worthwhile on the scale of life and death. While it is a nice thought to consider doing some good with my skills, experience, and killer instinct, the truth is that it isn’t realistic. First, there are the logistics of financing and equipping my own operation, then there is the near certainty of a grisly death, international incidents, and being branded a terrorist in the media that would follow. What is really stopping me, though, is that I simply am too sick to be effective in the field anymore. That, too, has been taken from me.

Thus, I am left with basically nothing. Too trapped in a war to be at peace, too damaged to be at war. Abandoned by those who would take the easy route, and a liability to those who stick it out—and thus deserve better. So you see, not only am I better off dead, but the world is better without me in it

This is what brought me to my actual final mission. Not suicide, but a mercy killing. I know how to kill, and I know how to do it so that there is no pain whatsoever. It was quick, and I did not suffer. And above all, now I am free. I feel no more pain. I have no more nightmares or flashbacks or hallucinations. I am no longer constantly depressed or afraid or worried

I am free.

I ask that you be happy for me for that. It is perhaps the best break I could have hoped for. Please accept this and be glad for me.

Daniel Somers

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19 Comments for “The Suicide of Daniel Somers (Video)”

  1. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I find it perplexing that an individual would write himself off because of witnessing things and participating in things that were beyond his control. Daniel said, “to move on in life after being part of such a thing would be the mark of a sociopath in my mind.”
    If Daniel did not instigate and conduct the action, he is not completely morally responsible. Admittedly, I don’t know all the details.

    For anyone to reject the possibility of emotional healing is analogous to an “honor killing,” when a female has been forcibly besmirched and pays with her life. We are not horses, we are people.

    • “Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, 
      And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, 
      Do not go gentle into that good night.” – Dylan Thomas, 1914-1953.

  2. Very sad. I hope other veterans will find some sense of life at least in fighting the oppressors who sent them into illegal wars. They can join the movement, become activist, educate the society about the truth behind those wars of conquest, turn their drama into maybe something good and useful? As a matter of fact their country really needs them now in the forefront of yet another struggle – this time against real enemies, and for the just cause.
    R.I.P. Daniel.

  3. I hope and pray that the DOD/CIA/NSA/ etc etc find this web page and commentary so threatening and provocative they have to read it all, with the comments.

  4. One can lose the will to live but by setting the mind to a meaningful goal you can keep the will to fight on.

  5. It has always bothered me, the retreating Saddam Husein’s troops, that were caught in a widespread “GRID” and slaughtered, NO MERCY, just killing (even though they were NO threat, and defeated) they were retreating and yet systematically destroyed by the thousands, caught in a deliberate grid of destruction. Designed for just that. Not my idea of a noble fight.

    I don’t know but this seemed inhumane, even in war, with NO opportunity for surrender, leaving their equipment and going. Who am I but a man on this earth.

  6. “To force me to do these things…” The aftermath of taking responsibility for one’s personal choices can be a very hard pill for a soul to swallow. That said, I fully honor and respect him for having the courage to walk such a path for his own soul growth.

  7. This letter is a vision into a soul, departed from the reality we shield from our collective consciousness.
    Those who do not shield it, feel it, and know innately what is being conveyed in this last observation of a life defiled by war.

    When Jackson Brown wrote “LIVES IN THE BALANCE”, this nation was blinded to the horrors of the death squads in South America, we were busy making deposits to keep up the the race and said nothing.

    Here are the words that now ring true today, of our illegal wars raging and with the passage of Daniel Somers serving as one grim reminder of the price we pay for allowing a totally corrupt government to exceed its authority;

    “LIVES IN THE BALANCE” – Jackson Brown

    “I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN
    FOR A WEEK OR A MONTH OR A YEAR
    WITH THE BLOOD IN THE INK OF THE HEADLINES
    AND THE SOUND OF THE CROWD IN MY EAR
    YOU MAY ASK WHAT IT TAKES TO REMEMBER
    WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU’VE SEEN IT BEFORE
    WHERE A GOVERNMENT LIES TO A PEOPLE
    AND A COUNTRY IS DRIFTING TO WAR

    AND THERE’S A SHADOW ON THE FACES
    OF THE MEN WHO SEND THE GUNS
    TO THE WARS THAT ARE FOUGHT IN PLACES
    WHERE THEIR BUSINESS INTERESTS RUN

    ON THE RADIO TALK SHOWS AND THE T.V.
    YOU HEAR THE ONE THING OVER AND OVER AGAIN
    HOW THE U.S.A STANDS FOR FREEDOM
    AND COMES TO THE AID OF A FRIEND
    BUT WHO ARE THE ONES WE CALL OUR FRIEND?
    THESE GOVERNMENTS KILLING THEIR OWN?
    OR THE PEOPLE WHO FINALLY CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE
    AND THEY PICK UP A GUN, A BRICK OR A STONE

    THERE ARE LIVES IN THE BALANCE
    THERE ARE PEOPLE UNDER FIRE
    THERE ARE CHILDREN AT THE CANNONS
    AND THERE IS BLOOD ON THE WIRE

    THERE IS A SHADOW ON THE FACES
    OF THE MEN WHO FAN THE FLAMES
    OF THE WARS THAT ARE FOUGHT IN PLACES
    WHERE WE CAN’T EVEN SAY THE NAMES

    THEY SELL US THE PRESIDENT THE SAME WAY
    THEY SELL US OUR CLOTHES AND OUR CARS
    THEY SELL US EVERYTHING FROM YOUTH TO RELIGION
    THE SAME WAY THEY SELL US OUR WARS

    I WANT TO KNOW WHO THE MEN IN THE SHADOWS ARE
    I WANT TO HEAR SOMEBODY ASKING THEM WHY?

    THEY CAN BE COUNTED ON TO TELL US WHO ARE ENEMIES ARE
    BUT THEY’RE NEVER THE ONES TO FIGHT OR DIE

    AND THERE ARE LIVES IN THE BALANCE
    THERE ARE PEOPLE UNDER FIRE
    THERE ARE CHILDREN AT THE CANNON
    AND THERE IS BLOOD ON THE WIRE ”

    The late Richie Havens sings it here;

    ****//www.youtube.com/watch?v=hrIDWnLQyYQ

  8. As above, so below. 

    “… not only am I better off dead, but the world is better without me in it.” With all due respect to Daniel’s spirit and his right to make a personal choice — we are NOT better off without you. 

    GD, thank you for posting this article.
    I am very sorry to hear of Dan’s personal anguish, and of the possibility that it is widespread in the veteran community. I intimately understand the shock of discovering that your world isn’t what you thought it was.

    In addition, there are alternative healing methods to the Drug & Cut Cartel. Don’t let those Turkeys get you down!

    • “The illness I have has caused me pain that not even the strongest medicines could dull, and there is no cure.” Well, hell’s bells, if you wait for corporate medicine to ride to the rescue, you might as well watch glaciers form in Tucumcari.

      Your LIVER is overwhelmed with TOXINS and it can’t filter your blood enough, and this is dulling your outlook and spirit — like running sludge through a motor instead of clean motor oil.

      There are detox methods and supplies available online that will start the physical detox process. If you can diminish the heavy metal influence in your body, this may lighten your depression. The mind (brain & heart) is  fueled by the body. 

      Get advice from local nutritionists. Start small. Meditate when you wake up in the middle of the night. 
      Try to think of one tiny joyful thing to do that day, such as not frowning, or singing the first verse to a Buddy Holly song….

      “Well, it’s one for the money, two for the show, three to get ready now go, cat, go
      But don’t you step on my blue suede shoes
      You can do anything but lay off of my blue suede shoes
      Well, you can knock me down, step in my face, Slander my name all over the place
      Do anything that you want to do but honey lay off of my shoes
      And don’t you step on my blue suede shoes
      You can burn my house, steal my car, Drink my liquor from an old fruit jar
      Do anything that you want to do 
      but honey lay off of my shoes.”

      Other songs include “I won’t go huntin’ with you, Jake,” and “I get tears in my ears.”
      You can create your own mini universe by singing first lines, even off key. ;)  Especially off key.

    • Where, oh where has my little post gone?

      Vets, you are loved because of the good you tried to do! There are sometimes powerful forces at work during a war. Please stop drinking the poison of recrimination and heavy thoughts. You are needed here on earth.

  9. CoJonesGrandes

    We are at end game.
    Some days ago, I was hit with an overwhelming sense of sadness.
    Being a quadruple Piscean, I pick up feelings directed at me.
    Recently, I ‘heard’ Cat Stevens’ Father & Son which I interpreted to mean that they are leaving.
    Now, I’m ‘hearing a lot of Frank Sinatra’s “My Way”.
    Those human members of the cabal will face new existences as trees and rocks etc, as described in Sean David Morton’s “Sands of Time”:

    Quote:
    There are many who created an excess of karma while living in this world during this age. These spirits will not go to another 3rd dimensional world. Instead they will descend, by going to a lower 2nd dimensional world to work off their karma. Then they will have to work their way back up to a 3rd dimensional world. These 2nd dimensional worlds have lower life forms, which are the developing animal and nature kingdom. There are no humanoid life forms that exist in the 2nd dimensions. Yes, their spirits will have the privilege to enter and experience life in animal bodies and nature bodies with many becoming observers, by entering into natures many life forms such as trees. They will spend a great amount of time observing, while working through these evolving 2nd dimensional worlds. This could take many eons or longer, before they can evolve out of this lower dimension.

    For those who have gone beyond an excess of karma, they will descend and go down to the 1st dimensional worlds. These are worlds that are evolving from the process of creation of a new world and they are essentially void of all life, since they are still in the process of evolving. These spirits will have the privilege to become total observers, starting at the beginning of creation. These spirits will actually inhabit the planet’s elements. They will literally have the privilege to become as dumb as rocks. This is the perspective that they will now view evolution from. They will have to begin evolving all over again from the beginning as the planet evolves, which is a very long and slow process. And NO, this is not hell. These are the consequences which are the results of choices these spirits made while living many lives in this age. Starting out again from the 1st dimension is like a complete reeducation process by observation, and along the way, karma is worked out at the speed of a rock. Now imagine how fast a rock moves on its own! That is the speed that you will evolve at in the 1st dimension. Get the message? Remember you have the privilege to ascend to the higher dimensional realms, or if you choose, to descend to the lower dimensional realms. Ascending or descending, is the result of the choices you make in every life time and every age. When your choices are in harmony with Universal Law, you may ascend. When your choices are not in harmony with Universal Law, you may remain at the same level you are now until you learn to how to Love One Another. When your choices are against Universal Law, you will descend to the lower dimensions. Your choice! Your future!

    • CoJonesGrandes

      To the members of the cabal, I tell you this: You may have garnered more knowledge and fancy technology than the rest of the human population from your ET buddies and those ETs you have tortured. You may think you are so superior but you are merely specks in the universe. You are nothing, nothing at all. And those you have harmed so greatly in your quest for knowledge are back. For instance, I understand Hank is itching to administer retribution to who abused him. LOL!

  10. A very moving and sobering letter. I hope the words are not lost in the blizzard of deceit.

  11. youtube/google games

    I put it back to public.

    we will see if it says

    g

  12. ayelyahbenjamin

    ‘The last thought that has occurred to me is one of some kind of final mission”….,,

    I don’t believe there is anyone who could read these final words of Daniel Somers and not be stirred deeply to feel the pain and hopelessness behind his words of honesty and truth straight from his heart… except maybe those who profit and manufacture war and who look upon our men with disdain. Daniel Somers your words will never be buried, they will continue to reverberate,,,awakening even those people who had no desire to be awakened….. can you hear a trumpet sounding?

  13. This poor soul was only hinting at AIDS and Morgellons and all the other diseases created by the zionists / nwo sickos who will do whatever it takes to install themselves at the top of the food-chain, including killing everyone who might compete for food, in any way they can think of, like AIDS and God knows what other diseases they’ve engineered.

    These creatures are not human. They declared war on us 12 years ago and need to be taken out, permanently, for the sake of God’s creation called Planet Earth.

  14. Gordon, Google is telling me that your video is “private”.

    Isn’t that funny?

    Not funny at all are the facts, which Daniel Somers wrote about in his last letter. As a child I whitnessed the nightmares of my father, which sometimes made it impossible for us children to have contact with him.

    Every war is a nightmare!

  15. TJ, I was trying to make the analogy that we are not horses to be put out of our misery or put down. It’s just not right when victimized people are made to pay a second price of guilt and self-hatred due to a horrible situation that they had to live through (which was the first price they paid.)

    I’m not going to stand silently by and watch a philosophy take root which says it might be okay to terminate one’s own life because of honor. It’s not right for women or for men.

    I respect an individual’s right to make their own choices, however.

    I feel grieved at the loss of Daniel.

    I wanted to make a point in a “lost post” that defiantly singing, even off key, can help keep the blues away.

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